Phong's Birthday

Recently I was very free without any jobs in hand so I went on browsing thru peoples blog. Then I came by a blog of a friend of mine in my friendster list. Eventually i browse thru and came across a blog which I found out that it has been very famous in Singapore. Anyway, after reading some of the blogs, I find blogging very interesting and I think I should blog to keep record in some of the interesting things that I discover and gone thru for my future references or whatsoever. An open diary I suppose.

Well, lets start with what I did on Deepavali Eve which is 21.10.2006. It was Phong's birthday and he invited all of us the Jazz bar in boat quay. I went there around 9pm and we had great fun trying to sabotage and make the birthday boy drunk. He kept repeating that he doesn't know how to write the word fall "tao" in mandarin. That make us even more eager to make him drunk.

Here are some of the throat burning liquid that took his dignity down to zero... haha...
First it was vodka shots with Dylan. Sorry I don't have picture fo this.
Then a full glass of submarine with Jemi. I don't have a picture for this too but I have a picture of Jemi posing with two elegant black beauties... Guinness Stout bottles...

Then after greeting R.I.P to him it was Graveyard time...

Down goes another graveyard with Jasmine...

I was lucky enough to make him pose a picture with me before he got drunk.=)

It was time for WATERFALL! Looks deadly to me...

Regret

have you ever regret on doing something, that when you looked back you wish that you never have done it? people will say let bygones be bygones..i can't seem to tell myself that, thus the feeling of guilt runs through my mind all the time.. should i stop doing something that i know i might regret doing or shall i give it a try and regret later? shall i just let it be and do whatever i feel like doing as no one knows whether what will happen next... i might not regret after all... who knows?
I should say sometimes humans tends to be greedy and tries to keep everything that they have and hold on to it until one day they regret in doing so because at the end of the time... they will loose all of it...
I found out that in this world there are a lot of similarity... i once felt that my life was like TVB series... my relationship was so complicated until i cannot believe or accept what is going on and happening myself... recently i found that most of the relationship ends the same way... well i'm not alone... i am considered one of the lucky one's as i have lots of friends around me and most of all... me n dylan, we are history but we can still be very good friends and share everything and talk about everything together... i hope we can maintain this relationship till the end of time even if one day he or me start and get on with a new relationship...

Decisions

It's another boring and sleepy Saturday.. I wonder who the hell started making Saturday a working day! :p Anyway no choice here I am in the office starring at my monitor wondering when will the clock strike one. I know it will be here soon as it is not 11.25 but still... time always passes by so slowly especially when you got nothing much to do... like how i am now... but no choice... gotto work for a living...
I was walking around Bugis yesterday with Ching waiting to meet a new friend from the same hometown as I am... I go in to this shop by the name of Accesorize. The name is pretty obvious right... will they sell accesories for grown up and kids... they got this little shinny shoes for little girls.. they are so adorable... tiny and cute...:) I was wondering how will it look if I am the one wearing it.. it will of coz look WEIRD... hahah..
I've read it somewhere that someone mentioned that "Life is full of decisions". Well I didn't think much about it at that point of time but now when i come to think about it.. that phrase is so true! Life is all about decisions. You have to make decisions everyday on everything that you want to do and needed to be done. Decision making is a routine in life. You make decisions from the very moment you open you eyes from your slumber... first decision in the morning... whether to wake up now of stay a while longer on the bed... whether to bath first then brush your teeth or the other way round... whether to tie a pony tail or leave your hair on... to wear the pink dress or the blue one.. to bring the small bag or the big one... to put on earings or not to put on? high heels today? or sport shoe..?? by bus to work or by cab? it is just a short 30 minutes and yet there are so many decisions to make.. then when it comes to work.. which color is suitable? where to place the logo? the same one kept repeating... then when it comes to lunch.. you will ask you friend... ei wat u eating ar? and your friend answers.. ermm i will eat pan min lor... but u was telling yourself no pan min today.. so what are u waiting for... it is another decision again... which you must make... else your day just won't be perfect...:) maybe because I am a Virgo so i tend to complete everything and hope that I won't forget any.. else.. I will feel that something is missing the whole day... you cannot stop yourself from making decision the whole day evey u sleep for 24 hours u already make a decision... that is you decided not to wake up.. and you decided to sleep for 24 hours....
Well that's life and it is now only 11.43 am still on the same boring and sleepy Saturday,,,, cheers..

What do you want?

This morning as usual I was late for work... I was walking at my fastest pace in order to reach office as early as possible as I am already late... well.. while I was walking something caught my eyes.. it was a harley... not just any normal harley but a harley decorated with sunflower.. even the biker's jacket is affixed with lots of striking yellow sunflowers... but it passed by too fast. I don't have enough time to take a photo of it. But you can try imagining sunflowers filled every inch of it's nicely polished black harley... can imagine??


Well this sunflower harley reminds me of a wedding car nicely decorated with fresh big yellow sunflowers.. it was so stunning.... i think it was roughly 5 years ago.. that day was my friend's wedding too... kee, mei, sow, pk & me was in the car on our way to the groom's house... and this charming wedding car came passing by... i can't hardly get it out of my mind until today...
When I reach office today... Gold 98 was on and it was playing what is your dream wedding... and that reminded me about a dream which i never remembered... My ex told me that I was talking in my sleep. I was telling him that I would want my wedding to be in Big Ben, London. This was like, wow. Yes I really like that place but hey, I never thought of going there for wedding... and that makes me wonder what do I really want. I used to dream about getting married, having my own little family, sweet and simple with a loving husband but I have lost all this dreams. I don't dare to even think about it. In fact, I don't want all this anymore which I once think that it is important and what I long to have from now till the end of my life. Things just came crashing thru my life this few months which makes me and my little heart becomes colder and colder.
Yesterday a friend of mine asked me a very simple question which until now I could not answer and I am still wondering why. Before he asked me the main question, he asked, "Jackie, how old are you this year?" I answered straight, "24". Then here comes the bomb, "You are 24 this year, what do you want?". Seriously, there is so many things that came bumping in to my thoughts but yet I could not answer this simple yet complicated question. What do I want? At the end I answered i don't know... I really don't know. What you dream is really what you want? or what you always think is what you want? What is the most important thing in your life that you would like to have from now till the end of your life? My first answer was "Money" second was "Career". He said,"No, No, this is not your answer." Seriously I totally agree that, that is not what i really want. But what? The question mark is still running around in my brain...

October 15, 2006

My Saturday wasted...
This is the first time ever spending a weekend at home sleeping, eating and watching tv without worrying about anything. Friday night I was out witht the boys in Kbox from 10pm till late... when i say late means.. late... anyway i still manage to crawl out of bed and get my ass to work... afterwork i was suppose to meet steven at home and we will go out for lunch and have a walk around chinatown but our plan didn't work out coz both of us are just to lazy to get our butt away from those comfortable warm blue leather sofa sitting in out living room...
Steven: eh, let sleep for a while..
me: ok la.. i also wanna sleep... we go out later after the nap la..
ok... both of us when snoozing.... until... ring ring.... who the h*ll wake me up in the middle of my sweet slumber??
me: hello
caller: oi wat u doing?
me: sleeping la... wat time is it now?
caller: sleep? so early?? now is 12 something..
oppss.... i slept too long and skiped dinner and chinatown plan..:p hahah... my nap was from 5++pm till 12++am.. hahah... i couldn't sleep later on of coz...